Saturday, June 25, 2005

The Sheltering Sky

Stormclouds on a windy morning sky. The seagulls wait patiently for the fishermen's return: the promise of fish-heads and shellfish . Seamus watches the increasing flames on the ocean with his wizened gray gaze. The other -more important- men suspect him of nothing. After all, fishermen have a simple life. Another knave, slave to the jested life of the yuppy, encouraged to rot on the sea and it's capricious code. Whatever life he leads cannot be compared to the empassioned existence of the rich, the noble. Seamus knows. He knows much more than we know. Truest emotions have never been lived, strengh never possessed, love never felt.
This isn't just morality.
He watches the sun make its path, slow emblem of labor and toil. Mysteries to men are solved in a thought's grace in this moment. The fulfillment of the human soul: near the epitome of spiritual maturity. He repairs his net, impervious the world.
Matte Kudasai- K.C.
Still by the window, white as a sheet, she waits in the air. She sleeps, cuddled around a rose bouquet. When was the rain so soft? She waits, cushioned by the dreams living inside her. The slow wind fills the trees with a rampant murmur. A black car shines on the street, outside. She waits.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Lukewarm?

Back from Mtl; very very nice. I went to the latino side and got a few calls, had time to meet some of the folks there. Now I want to go to latin America.
Finding love is like finding a job. Apply to the most places and see who gives you an answer first. If you're satisfied of the conditions, then screw the other places and work full time. You can always have two jobs -heck the pay is great- but it's a matter of time before you have to quit one of them.
Yeah I'm not calling Neroli again. Ever. I ain't know her! Damn. There must be a tall, attractive -and most importantly, normal- blonde somewhere out there. Suddenly I feel VERY, VERY stupid.
Talked to a lesbian couple. Gosh I envy them. They seemed so happy and enamored of each other. Plus they're awesome. We meet regularily at some place on 16th. I wish I'd be gay. Maybe I can act gay, and still be attracted to the opposite sex? Maybe I can just act gay and not be attracted to any sex...wait, that won't work...will it?

Old yeller had it coming.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Love, against

This dreaded love that each we bear-le fardeau de l'âme-, can't it be simpler? Getting old, getting a job, getting a car, getting drunk, getting laid, getting pregnant, getting married, getting a degree, getting a career, getting a kid, getting two kids, getting a retirement, getting older, getting senile, getting dead. Similar has it been for all of us. Is it necessary? Do we all need this? I hope I don't. Falling in love is so passé, why can't we just live without being lived by hype? Why can't we love without playing the tune?
She didn't come, after all.
L'été, son nouveau d'une senteur perdue. L'amazone dans toute son empleur, lueurs piquantes et fleurs époustouflantes. L'hédonisme dans toutes sa variétée. Qu'importe l'amour! Qu'importe l'espoir d'une vie conforme! Séduire la savane perd toute son ampleur quand les lions l'emporte. Je ne suis ni lion, ni gazelle, ni zèbre, ni éléfant. Je suis l'être perdu sans demoiselle­.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Finally

Got a job, finally. Going on a date tonight, finally. Going to get my permit, finally. School's over for the summer, finally. Got some new clothing, finally. A very

succint

moment.